Holy fuck.
I remember this time last year thinking to myself "can't I please just get a break from all this shit?"
Apparently, Santa/God/Buddha/Hindufloatything answered my question a year later.
Everyone in my immediate family is healthy finally.
I was accepted into Western Washington University- my second choice next to UW.
So guess what? I'M GOING TO COLLEGE! No matter what.
Secondly, Ryan is coming back in a week! HOLYSHIT. I thought I'd never ever see him again.
I'm so happy I'll get to see him again- even if a relationship might never work out.

I dont even care about presents this year.
I'm so overjoyed and happy, I could get shit for presents and I wouldn't care.


In other news.
I'm a dork.

Dear Friends and to whom anyone is feeling down/depressed/<(insert negative adjective here)>,
 
I have noticed recently that more and more of my friends and just overall people around me are depressed, sad, or otherwise not feeling good. 

And before I go any further, I'd like to make a disclaimer. I'm not trying to undermine anyone's problems, nor do I think I have some magical gift that can cure people of their problems. Futhermore, these are my opinions and are all based with the best intentions. Please don't get angry- I really am just trying to help. 

Now then, onwards I go. 

Most of you know that last year I was diagnosed with rheumatoid arthritis during a very difficult time in my life. During that time, the pain was so bad, I really, honestly, felt like I was dying and wished the process would hurry up so I wouldn't have to feel the pain anymore. I'm not sure if anyone who doesnt have RA can really understand fully what I went through, but try to bear with me and keep in mind it was an extremely traumatic experience.

If I've learned anything from facing my own mortality, its that life is far too precious and can be taken away from you at any moment. So, it really is true that you should live to the fullest every second of your life. Take care of yourself and do things you enjoy. No one can do this for you- you make your life what it is. If you're not happy with the way it is now, try little by little to turn it around. 

For me, it took experiencing a family member being extremely sick and myself gaining a lifelong illness.

I just want you to learn the lessons I've learned without the pain.

Get lots of sleep, eat right and, most importantly, make yourself happy. 

Its been a while since I was in the visual-kei scene.
But christ.... jrock has gone down the shitter.
And when I say jrock... I mean the people who like it.
God please save visual-kei.
Need proof?

Much more at : visual_fucks